Sex... the thing I'm expected to view as sin until my wedding night when it transforms to 'a beautiful thing'

I recently read a blog on "Sex and the Christian woman". Brilliantly written from the perpective of a virgin Christian woman who admits to thinking about sex.

I've wanted so much to pen smething on this topic and like her, have deleted - changed titles and shelved it... That is, until I read her piece.

I found it to be a beautifully written piece! Frank... Truthful... Sincere... It definitely 'hit the spot';-)

I was telling an older male colleague just yesterday about how difficult it is to be a beautiful, young single Christian woman (yes, I AM aware I'm beautiful!).

It doesn't help when, unlike the writer, you have experienced the 'sinful pleasure' of premarital sex before finally giving in to Christ's Love and deciding to pursue holiness and purity until marriage. Yes, I'm madly inlove with my Jesus and yes, I have moments when I have to fight off the insane cravings my body has! It doesn't help when you're pursued by (dare I say) hot, young (and old), good-looking men every other day while all the eligible Christian brothers steer clear and give you side hugs while they continue 'seeing (wo)men as trees'!

I know I could secretely engage in habitual sexual sin and I know I could just stop fighting my body's desires and give in but I choose to pursue purity in Christ while I wait to be 'found' by hubby dearest! It's really tough being a single Christian woman when it comes to sex... I'm not supposed to think about it, see? Nevermind want it!

I'm supposed to shy away from 'married women conversation' at Christian sisters' bridal showers when what I really want to do is also wear that sexy nightdress she's just been bought 'for the wedding night' and 'teach her a thing or two' in preparation for her 'Big Night' - yes, I said it...

I'm blood-washed, converted, sanctified, redeemed, ransomed, the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus and I revell in the love my God has for me and I crave to see all people's eyes unveiled to the gift of salvation but yes, sex features in my thoughts more times than I care to admit or I'm allowed to admit!

So, in the mean time, while God's perfect plan for my life unfolds... I pray and wait...